If you or anyone you know are struggling with your mental health, please reach out by texting or calling the 988 lifeline or any of the other websites on the links below. You are not alone. https://988lifeline.org, https://afsp.org/im-having-thoughts-of-suicide/
If you are interested in learning more about music and mental health, I strongly recommend you read the book Recovery Unplugged by Paul Pellinger, a certified addiction counselor, therapist, and pioneer in music-based addiction treatment for over 20 years, for whom I am crediting for the exercise tips while listening to each music category. In addition, Pellinger is the founder of Face the Music, a foundation that destigmatizes addiction and provides support through music to those struggling with addiction.
If you are curious about music therapy in particular, here is a list of certified music therapists that you can reach out to or read about to learn what they do: https://www.cbmt.org/approved-providers/current-roster/all-cbmt-approved-providers/